This was one of the sweetest message I’ve ever received.
“The Acrostics”
Once upon a time, there is a princess… No, I’m just kidding. Hahaha. I don’t know why I am writing this right now. Things are too complicated, and I don’t want to make it much complicated than what it is right now. Di naman siguro complicated yung right term, siguro “awkward” would be much fitting. There are a lot of things na gusto kong sabihin sa'yo but pag andiyan ka na, nauutal na ako, natatameme, nawawala sa wisyo, nababaliw, kinakabahan, natotorpe. Mahirap pala talaga pag kaharap mo na yung taong…
Right now, I am still clueless sa mga dapat kong sabihin, iniisip kong mabuti kung ano bang dapat kong sabihin. Parang tanga lang. Parang di naman kasi tatalab kung sweet nga pero di naman makatotohanan yung sasabihin ko. I want it to be realistic. Siguro simulan ko na lang sa pinakaumpisa. Let’s start with the very beginning, kung san ba talaga ‘to nagsimula para mas maganda.
Ewan ko kung kelan talaga nagsimula 'to, di ko na matandaan yung date (pilit inaalala hahahaha), but all I can remember is gabi nun. Inaya ako ni Martin na pumunta ng St. Paul Manila, ayoko sana sumama kasi tinatamad ako pero sumige pa rin ako. Ipapakilala niya daw yung mga kaibigan niya na taga SPMU. To make the long story short, ayun, pumunta kami dun. And the first one na bumati sakin is ikaw. Di ko makita masyado kasi ang dilim, malabo kasi yung mata ko. Naalala ko lang nun is nakakatawa yung pagpronounce mo ng pangalan ko. I know naman na it’s a joke pero nakakatawa talaga… SIDRIK. Pero hindi kita talaga napapansin nun kasi ang dilim and bukod dun, pumasok ka agad para magpractice. But nung pumasok na ako dun sa studio, dun kita nakita ng mabuti. And nakakabilib ka sumayaw, imba masyado. And after mo sumayaw, biglang bumilis yung tibok ng puso ko… 'cause you smiled.
Then and there, you captured my attention. Mahabang buhok, cute na mga mata, tawang nakakahawa, matamis na mga ngiti… then and there I realized… you didn’t just simply captured my attention… you captured ME.
Nung oras din na yun nalaman ko na you are currently seeing someone. That quite hurts, I told myself. I thought I will stop admiring you, I thought I will stop dreaming, I thought I will stop from there, but I didn’t. Instead of stopping, the feeling that I thought was just out of admiration or infatuation (at its worst), was something much bigger than what I’ve expected. Admiration that was turned to infatuation, infatuation that was been turned into…
Obsession would be a good term to describe kung ano ba yung ginagawa ko ngayon. Panget talaga pakinggan or basahin or banggitin, but that is the truth hahahaha. Obsession na talaga ang tawag dito. Imagine naman kasi na once in one’s life, maramdaman mo yung mabaliw talaga ng sobra dahil sa iisang tao hahahahaha. Always checking up someone’s Facebook profile, tinitignan and you are collecting his/her pictures, always saying her name, always doing things that a normal person shouldn’t do. Creepy talaga. But, that’s the only way I could think of. Way of expressing how I am feeling right now. But I am truly glad na kahit papaano, you appreciate those things na ginagawa ko.
Moments. Every moments na kasama kita is bilang sa daliri ko, pero yung saya yun kasi yung di mo mabibilang. Moments na sobrang simple but binigay mo sakin, pinaramdam mo sakin. Malaking bagay para sakin. Simula sa video, hanggang sa Adobe Photoshop edits, hanggang dun sa bracelet. Sobrang thankful ako sayo kasi kahit di mo naman ako ganun kakilala, you appreciate those simple things, those simple gestures. Thank you so much. Really, thank you.
Hindi ko man masabi sayo ng personal, kulang man talaga sa actions pero I really do mean the things that I have said, the things that I have did, I really do mean lahat ng ginawa ko.
Alam mo ba you deserved every happiness this world could offer. Anyone—EVERYONE would be glad to have someone like you in his life. Alam mo yung feeling na ang proud mo masyado 'cause you have someone like you sa buhay niya. Mabuting tao, sobrang gandang babae, magaling sumayaw as in talented, masipag sa buhay, ano pa bang hahanapin ng isang tao sayo? Sabi nga sa kanta “Nasa 'Yo Na Ang Lahat”. Totoo, nasa iyo naman na talaga ang lahat.
Ewan ko pero dapat siguro talaga tantanan ko na ito… itigil ko na at maging totoo na talaga.
Veah Mallari Montero, as my final part of this message, gusto kong malaman mo na napakaganda mong tao, napakabuti mong tao. Paulit-ulit sa message na ito, pero yun kasi yung gusto ko talagang iparating sayo. Ikaw yung nagiisang tao na ininspire ako ng sobra. Sobrang nagpapasalamat ako na nandiyan ka to give me all the positive things na kailangan ko. Pag nanghihina ako or sobrang nalulungkot, all I need is to see your VEAHtiful smile and I’ll be alright the next minute. Thank you Veah. Thank you so much. Sobrang pagpapasalamat ko na nakilala ko ang isang tulad mo. And for once, I’ll say these words…. I like you… I really do…
